What can I say? I’m still the girl with Colitis. I’m still walking around like an old person, holding my tummy like I’m pregnant. I’m still limited to where I can go, how long I can stay away from a bathroom, and how long I can stand up.
I don’t want to go back to Prednisone. I’ve already had to buy ALL new clothes because I can’t shake the extra 10lbs that I gained. I’m taking 1500mg of Tylenol in the morning just to take the edge off long enough to get my girl to the bus stop.
My brain is back in a fog, so I don’t feel like doing too much but sit on the couch. It’s been hard to regulate my diet because of it. I’m just keeping the meals small & simple, but keeping the carbs low instead of eliminating them entirely. I wanted to keep to the Paleo as much as I can, but it’s hard if I can’t get to the stove or the store. Fish, for some reason, always makes my tummy happy. And I’ve added some fermented foods, probiotic drinks like Kevita, & miso soup.
So in desperation, not knowing what else to do, I went to the vitamin store & got Renew Life’s “Intestinal Bowel Support” pack. It’s been almost a week, and it’s already helping enough to get me off the couch a bit more. Better than I expected.
Someone mentioned to me to try probiotic retention enemas, so I may take another trip to the vitamin store. AND I came across another blog mentioning of vitamin E retention enemas daily that helped “cure” their ulcerative colitis. I think I’m going to try the probiotic first.
It’s not the “gross” factor that bothers me about retention enemas. Very little grosses me out. It’s that I’ve already had 4 years experience with them: Rowasa Enemas, every night. AND through a pregnancy, too! YOU try having a 7lb baby in your belly as you’re crouched over in the “child” yoga pose, sticking something up your as*, and KEEPING it from coming back out! “Humbling” is not the word.And worse, it really did NOTHING for me. I only did it because the doctor told me to.
I think it’s time to plan another trip. It’s still early in the game, but it’s possible that I’ve had ulcerative colitis so long, I’ll need more than 1500 worms to help out my plumbing. I need more doses of the little guys.
I’m still hopeful. I am. No really, I am. But the brain fog makes me seem more indifferent than hopeful. And there’s been so much that’s happened in my life recently — new house, new school district for my daughter, divorce final (that’s actually good news), family upsets — that I’ve just been pushing through the pain in order to take care of the outside world. Now that I’m moved and settled and happy where I am, I can focus more on the “inside world”, and heal myself.